AA Degree Vancouver

Need some honest advice?

Question by Lionel Pierce: Need some honest advice?
Been told to rephrase this….bascially I’ve been on a downward spiral since02-03′ and I need to make it stop before it is seriously too late….okay graduated highschool 01′ (18)….community school for a year…..got a weed charge….went to Rutgers for a year (19) , failed out…..got a trespassing charge….wnet back to community school (20)…polished off AA degree while working (21)….moved with parents to FL to go to USF….took two community college courses down here to get accepted to USF but hated florida so much couldnt take it and moved back to NJ…..got a DUI and a felony joyriding charge back in NJ (22)….did a year probation and not much else but odd jobs (23)….more odd jobs tryn to get back into USF DUI in fl (24)….working and enrolled myself in USF AND took summer courses before my scooter was totaled (25)….odd jobs really no direction at all (26)…..odd jobs, finally got a decent one, planning on going back to USF, got another DUI October 29th 2010…..got a high priced lawyer who I cant afford on a payment plan….DUI still pendiing in NJ….second one in under 5 years in FL (27 present)

Now I need some advice…..basically I’m all alone down here, sure I live with my folks but they are unhappy here and dont know many people…..I no absolutely no one and it has been that way for the past 4-5 years….I guess its why I go out and drink to try and meet people….not makin any excuses….stopped drinking here and there….but just being completely isolated like this for so long has left me socially hindered….seriously have no idea who I am anymore…..that whole chronological listing I wrote up there is all I can say for myself….I cant really remember much else I have done….went through serious spats of depression….was even suicidal…tried moving in with family in Vancouver….turned out to be a total nightmare….tried getting back into school numerous times….tried working everywhere….transportation has been the major issue….live in a remote area of FL that was nothing up until a few years back with the housing craze…nothing happening….housing development is a failing one…..no jobs, economy only making matters worse but where we are its just business as usual…..really dont have anyone…..dont know how long my liscense will be suspended….there is no one who will take me in….cant really move to a major city with public transport with no real job qualifications…..have an associate’s degree……smattering job history at best…..with breaks and all…worked so many odd jobs cant even remember them all….have a fairly decent resume but can be discredited fairly easily……felony on my record from 06′…….some say can be expunged after five years, will be 5 in April but NJ has very odd laws especially when dealing with multiple offenders.

Not depressed anymore…maybe I am but I can deal with it and be functional…..intelligent, clearly reading this I’m sure you can ascertain a certain level of at least my vocal and writing prowess….not a bad guy, can have a bit of a temper but it is always directed at myself….not a violent person at all….never stolen much of anything and dont plan to…..really harmless….looking to get my life together…..my 20s have been a total wash….I have interests, music, reading, exercise, etc.

The main reason I get drunk all the time is because I need to have sex….my sexual history is very sporadic…..meaning I an go six months without even so much as a wink from a women then in a 2 week period have multiple partners….there is no balance in my life….not just sexually, but socially, professionally, personally, spiritually, you name it……

I feel as though Im just boucing around….nothin in my life is connected to anything else….its a free for all….I feel scattered…..one moment I know who I am and where Im going and feel full of hope and thee next I can be profoundly abysmal…..I dont think its bi-polar condition….there is just nothing steady in my life at all….except for maybe constant confusion and a fear that it will always be….except worse….because the older I get the less sympathetic people tend to be and the more doors are closed to me…..

it may just be a pipe dream but I was a very able baseball player…..doubt that will ever go anywhere…who am I kidding…Im almost 28, it absolutely wont go anywhere…..things aren’t at a catacylsmic level yet but I have to realistically look at my life honestly and it can be troubling at times…..it has been circumstance more than anything….one thing after another with no end in sight…..

please share with me my annonymous internet friends (the only ones I have left) and please dont view this as a boo hoo hoo swan song….I dont want to panic and make things worse…..but I need help and the soobner the better.

Best answer:

Answer by TheOne
Sounds to me like you need to join AA immediately.

It will look good to the court when you show up.

Stop making excuses, and find a path to your own happiness.

See the link below.

Peace.

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